sooo unfair!!!

Its so unfair that 2 people living together and sharing bills cannot make ends meet. Sure, we have low incomes, but you would think that when 2 people combine their incomes, they should be able to get by. But NO! Everything is sooo expensive. I am going to have to get rid of my internet and cable cuz I can't afford them. They are my only source of entertainment. I'll probably have to get rid of my cell phone too. All this just to pay the rent. And we don't have a big fancy apartment. Its one of the cheapest around. I'll be lucky if I can afford to even pay for the basic necessities like food and medicine. Even though I get food stamps!!! No matter what I do, I still don't have enough $$. I am trying to make a little bit of money online, with the blog for example. But so far I haven't made a cent. I do online surveys and stuff too, but hardly make anything. I enter sweeps, giveaways, etc. all the time...and haven't ever won a thing! Why can't I catch a break?! I am a good, honest, religious person. I pray for help all the time. It seems like God is ignoring my pleas. I am so stressed and upset all the time. Why is life soooo hard?? Will it ever improve??

Its so unfair how things come so easily to some people while others have almost nothing.  Some people are born into rich families or marry into rich families or are lucky enough to get good jobs, good benefits, etc.  Some people win money. Some people are just lucky it seems.

Then there are others, like me, who just can't catch a break. Sure, I've had a couple jobs but they were low paying and I wasn't very successful. I've never been able to hold any job for very long. I've either gotten fired or had to quit because I just wasn't any good at the job. Its not that I didn't try hard enough. I tried my best at all my jobs. It just seems to me like some people are just meant to be successful and some aren't. No matter what they do or how hard they try.

So...I am currently unemployed. I receive very little unemployment benefits and I can't afford to pay my bills. I have a boyfriend who works...but even when we combine our two incomes, we still don't have enough to make ends meet. Its so unfair!! How can that be?! We have cut our expenses as much as possible. We try to save as much as possible. We don't buy anything but the necessities. And we still come up short.

I enter contests, sweepstakes, and giveaways everyday, on the internet and otherwise. I have been doing this for years. You would think that the law of averages would be on my side and I should have won SOMETHING  by now. But no...not a thing. I know of people who win things all the time. Multiple things. And very often these people who win things don't even need extra income. They are getting by just fine already. Why can't someone like me win?? Its just not fair.

Then again, I guess life's not supposed to be fair. I'm not sure why...but its not. I guess its God's way of testing us or something. My only hope seems to be that when I die I'll get to go to heaven and have a good time there. Maybe when I die, I'll finally have some peace and happiness.